I try not to be a worry wort, but it doesn’t always work out. Lately all I seem to think about is my health and Lauren’s and my finances. Neither are at breaking point but both are not near where they should be. With that Ultra Sound I now feel like I have a real reason to care. Not for me, but for James. Heart disease runs in my family and James gives me so much to live for. With our money I want us to be able to help save for the future, not just James college but Lauren’s and my future as well. Together it leaves me with a big knotted stomach. I want to be a good healthy dad that can provide for my son in ways I didn’t get. Maybe I need another job and they can kill both birds with one stone more work means more exercise and more money.